The empty room
How many times have Brian or I walked by Charlotte's empty room at night? How many times have one of us tucked in 2 kids but not the 3rd? Heading up to bed only to pass by her room, door open with her girly white ruffled curtains drawn showing the moonlight across her floor. Her bed empty because she is sleeping in the hospital. Brian and I have done this countless times this year and a half while one of us is home with half of our family and the other is at the hospital with Charlotte. Tonight, as I headed up to bed, it occurred to me that this is the LAST night I will walk by her empty room while she sleeps away in the hospital with Brian. Tomorrow will be Brian's last night walking by her empty room because she is a cancer patient being hospitalized for treatment.
It's true she may travel to New York for outpatient appointments and we may be apart periodically as we pursue what may be best for her long term care and outcome. But all that is part of the victory dance of having her still here with us. And she will have nights away as she grows up: perhaps an over night summer camp one day, a sleep over with a best friend, camp out with a troop, maybe a vacation away with a grandparent...who knows what's in her future. But we will keep praying it's no longer hospital beds and IV poles beeping and vitals every 4 hours and IV medicine coursing through her veins and tears missing her brother and sister and asking when can she come home and divided mom and dad days and adults constantly surrounding her instead of other children. If her room is empty, it's because she's out living her life. If her room is empty, it's because she just hasn't come back home yet. But she will come back home. We will keep believing Gods plans are far better then our imagination.
Things are going well this week during round 5 of immunotherapy...we think she will come home Friday❤️🌈 We can't wait to share that victory and the celebration with you all
It's true she may travel to New York for outpatient appointments and we may be apart periodically as we pursue what may be best for her long term care and outcome. But all that is part of the victory dance of having her still here with us. And she will have nights away as she grows up: perhaps an over night summer camp one day, a sleep over with a best friend, camp out with a troop, maybe a vacation away with a grandparent...who knows what's in her future. But we will keep praying it's no longer hospital beds and IV poles beeping and vitals every 4 hours and IV medicine coursing through her veins and tears missing her brother and sister and asking when can she come home and divided mom and dad days and adults constantly surrounding her instead of other children. If her room is empty, it's because she's out living her life. If her room is empty, it's because she just hasn't come back home yet. But she will come back home. We will keep believing Gods plans are far better then our imagination.
Things are going well this week during round 5 of immunotherapy...we think she will come home Friday❤️🌈 We can't wait to share that victory and the celebration with you all
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