Dreams and Nightmares
Pushing me on the swing brings Charlotte so much joy that even though I’m motion sick for hours afterwards, I can’t say no. She needed the smile today. I wish I could say she doesn’t remember any of the pain and fears from the last 1.5 years but she reminds us from time to time, as she has done today, that there are things that haunt her. All day today, she has carried the feelings left behind by a scary dream that she had last night. There was a “big scanner that looked into my bones” and something about me telling her not to worry because there was enough oxygen. And something about falling down into a drain and Taylor screamed and that if she fell down into the dark hole she would die. She cried saying she doesn’t want to die. From 3am-4am and again many times today, her dream felt so real. She wanted to tell us all about it but you could see her choke back her tears. She must have told us the dream 5 times already today and when she laid her little head on her pillow for an aftern