Joy and Pain

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Joy and Pain in this moment


I want to update all of you who have been loving our family and cheering for our Charlotte all this time, but I am having a hard time writing this. (We have returned from MSK where Charlotte received her 7th and final NB vaccine shot on this clinical trial, had 4 bone marrow biopsies (returned clear), and met with survivorship team for tests and exam and to establish care for long term follow up appointments.)

Yesterday, on the same day that our Charlotte received what we pray was truly her final cancer therapy treatment, our Poppy took his last breath while holding his wife’s hand. We loved this man so so much and there are just no words at this time that can be said as we try to process this sudden and unexpected loss of our stepfather, father-in-law, and grandfather who was such a special soul and presence in our lives. Neal and Schuey have been here supporting and holding us since diagnosis and now, it’s our turn to hold them close and surround Nana Schu in any way we can. 

Joy for our blessings mixed with the pain from this loss. Thanks for your continued love and prayers for our family




Both Joy and Pain in this moment. This joyful day for our Charlotte is also one of the most painful days in our family. We love you Poppy—we know how proud and happy you were for Charlotte this week. We can’t begin to express or even imagine how much we will miss you. We love you and Nana Schu so much  

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  1. ppa1dayatatimeMarch 20, 2021 at 10:50 AM

    Please receive this sentiment, and play it until the end, message at the end of the ecard. I emailied it to you as well Jennifer: https://www.hallmarkecards.com/pickup/ecard/k3maMEEZY5D4ddKbgk8gRWqmP

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  2. ppa1dayatatimeMarch 20, 2021 at 10:51 AM

    Play it with volume on too! xoxo

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