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This was just 1 year ago. Like a dream or even another lifetime for our family where Charlotte had beaten her cancer, was about to finish Preschool and getting ready for Kindergarten, having her first dance recital, taking gymnastics, and thriving like our prayers had asked for a million times over. But look closer. This is a picture of a little girl with cancer growing...regrowing inside of her. No sign of disease, the picture of a happy little girl in perfect health. But in just a few weeks, the storm we thought we made it through would somehow snatch us and drag us back in. But our human spirit, HER spirit, although tested once more and battered and dragged through the unknown and despair, WOULD overcome. The unexplainable presence that our family would begin to feel once again would settle into our heart and bones, and help us find the faith and strength that only God can. Look again and you will see a little girl who is about to beat her cancer a second time all while trying to juggle Kindergarten and her fun activities like gymnastics. She will move through the hurt and fear and pain and missing out on some of the childhood we all hope for our kids, but she will make it. And next week, we must head back to NYC for her to receive the 4th round of maintenance treatment, amid another storm of sorts where everyone is facing various realities of their own during the pandemic. This round will require an additional day to report for COVID testing before they will see her in clinic though I wish this wasn’t the case as I try to limit our exposure and shield her best I can. Nevertheless, she will keep moving forward, bravely. Isn’t that all any of us can do?

I have written a few posts and then honestly never finished them. I guess I needed a break writing or kept getting so busy and distracted with everyone home and a new puppy. But Charlotte is doing amazingly. She learned to ride her bike without training wheels and lost both top front teeth, a picture of toothless joy. I’ll try to come back to what I started and update this page more often soon but for now I’m trying to soak in the days we are all home while balancing school and Brian’s work. Looking for rainbows during this long storm but counting our blessings all the way🌈❤️

#charlottestrong #familystrong


One year ago

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