Remembering 3 years ago today

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3 years ago TODAY was the day Duke found the abdominal mass on the CT and told us Charlotte had cancer, although official diagnosis was still to come. I can close my eyes and go back to that CT scan. Never could we have imagined what was there making her feel so sick. I was helping to hold her arms over her head and trying to make her smile and be at ease while Brian stood with us watching the face of the CT technician. Brian wouldn’t tell me this until much later, but he watched the tech close his eyes and look away. He watched tears well up. Brian knew they saw something horrible. A short while later, our doctor came to her hospital room and closed the door behind her and told us that Charlotte has cancer. 3 years ago this week, our journey began.

Today, TODAY y’all, our baby girl exudes all the grace and hope and possibilities God provided. Today, her big sister, Taylor, was the mystery reader in Charlotte’s  preschool class. Today, Charlotte shouted out “Tay Tay!!” when she saw her walk into her classroom as she sat in the reading circle among her peers. Today, she is healthy and happy and a carefree 5 year old. Today, Brian and I remember the nightmare that was beginning and yet somehow transformed into an inspirational journey that would change the trajectory of our lives and of many other‘s. Today, we can remember the fear and pain of that day and of this week as if it’s a fresh wound, but we know this has become an important scar that in someway still unknown to us has become a gift. Not a gift we wanted or could have imagined, but God has given us a gift through Charlotte and her journey. Maybe somehow any of this has been a gift in someway to you as well...at least that is our hope. We still keep looking for the best way to use whatever gifts we’ve been given and we know we will as the clarity unfolds before Brian and I.

LOVE the ones you love and LIVE your best life❤️🌈We love you village and thank God for you and for all of our blessings every single day

Hang on baby girl

Morning of her CT

Day they found her tumor on the CT, trying to bring her a smile


Her journey was beginning 3 years ago today

Today 3 years later 💕🌈 


Thank you god for these days and for this family 

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  1. ppa1dayatatimeMarch 15, 2019 at 6:07 PM

    Charlotte and her journey have been a gift to us all! XOXO

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